despite growing up listening to sounds and noises and clamours of things screaming on top of their lungs, despite the love i have for them, i have outgrown the idea of having them around, filling me mentally, emotionally. i dont regret the phase i went through, i will never regret the things i'd do with them surrounding me like an aura of positivity and motivation, but once in a while, i seek the gap between these sounds, the 1 millisecond of silence. the things i would risk for this silence are priceless. a moment of peace and release. a moment to forget, to breathe, to let things be. it will come, but these noises never seem to stop, they seem to keep going as i go, so then tell me, how do i pause?